Happy New Year! and thank you...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I know you are thinking, wow is she ever late!!  Well I figure better late than never, right? :)  I have to admit the last few months weeks have been spent in some pretty deep soul searching.  

Okay to be up front and above board this is going to be one of those truly "heavy" posts.... You see something happened back in May that rocked my world but I didn't find out until the end of June.  


In all honesty, its something that ate away at me for months.  It affected all relationships in my life....my husband, children, my Lord and the world in general.  


...it all started with a letter... in June... to my Mom... from the US Army saying her portion of my dad's retirement check per the divorce settlement was stopped because.... my Dad had died... in MAY!!  All paperwork listed him as having no next of kin.  Yeah that would be me.... I was the NO NEXT of KIN and it hurt me to the CORE!!!  This was the man who cut all ties with me when we moved to Alaska in 2005.  I was crushed but instead of reaching out, I built walls.  High, thick walls surrounding my heart to keep it from breaking apart completely... walls that ended up closing me off from my husband, my children, the world, and my Lord.  This was the man who lied to me by saying he had sold his house and was moving and would call me with his new phone number the following week after I gave him our new address, phone numbers, etc... it never happened.  The cell number I called was disconnected a few weeks later, his house was foreclosed on, and there was NO forwarding address.  In fact 6 years later the Department of US Army still thought he was at the old address.  His bank still had the address for the old house.  It was as if he had vanished.... until he showed up at a hospital emergency room and died a week later.  It was only then that any records show he had moved into a condo owned by the "kid" who had been "renting" his basement apartment for all those years prior to the foreclosure.  The "kid" who told the hospital there was an estranged daughter but they hadn't heard from her in years. LIAR!!  It was HIS phone my dad had called me from that last time I talked to him back in November of 2005.  The hurt ran deep but, you know what?  I'm healing.  FINALLY... It took a notification in December, yes December you did read that correctly, to my Mom saying they needed more info as there might be back retirement/disability pay owed due to Dad's time in Vietnam.  I finally sat down and cried sobbed my heart out... my dad was gone and was never coming back.  There was no longer any chance of reconciliation, no opportunity to say that I loved him regardless....., bygone hurts were forgiven, and that no matter what he was still my Dad and I LOVE him!  But I was finally able to face things head on with the help of my Lord and the walls came crumbling down. Do I still have moments?  Yes but there are far more reasons for me to move forward... a husband that loves me dearly, children who are truly a blessing from God, and a host of friends who are dear to my heart.  


So I am moving on with life.  Does this mean I will post more regularly?  Not necessarily. ha ha! (insert big cheesy grin)  It does me that the projects are being worked on again, plans are being made, and life is moving forward... with me as a willing participant, not grudgingly.  Our eldest graduates in May and heads off to college in the fall... a new chapter to be EMBRACED.  This house is our HOME, not just a temporary residence.  COOKING is a personal experience to be shared again.  FINANCIAL responsibility is proactive. CREATIVITY allows me to breath.  PRAYER gives strength. READING THE WORD brings  sustenance to a starving soul. LEARNING stretches in more ways than I can even begin to acknowledge.  


So please continue along with me on this journey.  And yes I really do plan to work much harder on this blog.... the first steps will be finding a mentor, stepping out of my comfort zone instead of retreating, and looking for accountability.  Any takers? Ha ha!


And last but definitely, most definitely NOT least I want to say:

THANK YOU!

for being plugging along with me, through thick or thin, rain, shine, storms and absence!  But mostly through absence!!  I really do appreciate it!

Hedgy the hedgehog plushie.

(please forgive the poor quality photo I just couldn't wait to show you my new "friend"!!)

While pulling out the Christmas ornaments this year I discovered something... my hedgehog is missing.  You see I have been enamored with hedgehogs ever since I was a little girl and we were stationed in what was then West Germany.  So one year at the Kris Kringle Mart my mom bought me a sweet handcarved hedgehog.  He was all of 2 inches long.  A number of years ago Chris went on a TDY where he had a layover of sorts in Germany.  During the time Chris was in Germany he was able to visit some dear friends of ours and do a little sightseeing.  On one of his trips he found a stuffed hedgehog which promptly made its way into his suitcase.  Each year my dear friend comes out and enjoys the holidays with us.  Well this year I can't find him....  But while visiting a friend's blog I discovered she had made this porcupine.

Once again Kirstin had come to my rescue without even realizing it.  One thing led to another and before you know it I was making plans to myself a hedgehog.  It just wouldn't be Christmas without my dear sweet friend under the tree or in the tree or next to the nativity! You see my dear little Hedgy has always had a penchance for travel.  So this afternoon I grabbed the sewing machine, zigzagged the yarn onto an old felted black sweater, and stuffed him with filling from an old pillow.  Its crazy as even the thread is from my super duper yard sale sewing notions find.  Oh I did buy the yarn but I had a 40% off coupon at JoAnn's.  I have to admit the lighting isn't all that great horrible as it already dark out but I just could not wait to show you my new friend!

Once again thank you Kirstin at kojodesigns for inspiring me!

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Merry swap show and tell

I want to thank Carrie and Monica for hosting this year's Merry Sister Swap.  Debbie was my partner and I must say Carrie & Monica did a wonderful job matching us up!  In fact I really wish Debbie and I lived closer together because we would have such a fun time crafting together.  She is such a dear, sweet lady!

I forgot to take a picture of the goodies I sent Debbie but here is what she sent me:

After I took the picture I realized a few items were missing such as the delicious hot cocoa mix, the most adorable card, and the inspirational book.  Don't you just love the notepads and crocheted flowers Debbie made!  I love making notebooks/pads and am always tickled to get new ideas!

It was truly a pleasure being able to participate in the swap and I am so blessed with the new friend I have now made!!  Thank you so very much, Debbie and I look forward to many, many years of friendship!

I WON!! BIG Time!

Okay I know I've been missing for a while but well by now you know thats how it goes with me.  Its usually a case of feast or famine.  But right now I want to give some folks a seriously big THANK YOU!  You see I won a giveaway recently.... and when I say it was big, well ya'll I am talking super duper BIG!  I mean we are talking I seriously squealed/yelled out "NO WAY!! Seriously?"  okay so I didn't exactly squeal but when I am super duper excited I do get a bit squeaky when I yell out "NO WAY!"  Don't ask.... and Mr. Lurker (yes I know who you are!!) do NOT give the guys a hard time about this.  (yeah I know you go on your mom's account and read my blog, ha ha! Didn't think I knew, did you? hee hee!)


So I want to thank the folks at Calphalon and Lauren from Laurens Latest!  You see I won the Calphalon 3-in-1 immersion hand blender and the new Bronze Edition 3 qt Non-stick saute pan in this giveaway.  To say I am in love is an understatement!  Now I am asking for utensils so that this lovely saute pan does not get scratched.  It is simply stunning in its performance and beauty!  And you know me, I LOVE to cook (ok maybe you don't realize that but I DO, I just don't photograph it or even talk about it too much!)!!  

Once again I would like to thank the folks at Calphalon and Lauren very much!!  And I was shocked at the turnaround!  Never and I never have a won a giveaway where I had the product in hand in such a quick time.  I mean it was under a week from the time I submitted my info to Lauren to the time Calphalon had it on my doorstep!  (it may be silly but I saved the box so the saute pan can be wrapped up and put under the tree for Christmas because as far as I'm concerned this is one of my Christmas presents!!)

6th Annual Freshly Blended Holiday Ornament Swap

This year I participated in the

                                                                                                                               

Well the pieced Christmas tree ornaments are completed!

Do you remember when I showed them to you here?

I just had to show you a few of the completed ones!

Do you see the adorable Canary yellow rickrack with the metallic zigzag running through it?  Well....

You know that I really like a bargain, right?  We are all on the same page here, yes?  Well last summer I found a cute little plastic 1950's basket/tray... for $.25 and..........it was filled with notions.  1950's to 1970's sewing notions!!  seam binding, unopened packets of rickrack, buttons, zippers, needle threaders, snaps, etc.  And in that sweet little basket was not one but TWO unopened packages of Canary Rick Rack.

(This is the actual label!)

Okay now that we have gone down that rabbit trail....  I really don't know the purpose but I just had to share.  I mean its not every day you find unopened packages of 19 cent rickrack and its definitely not everyday you end up having a use for said rickrack.  Yeppers, I was tickled pink!  Still am for that matter.  And do you know what?  I still have a package of pink metallic rickrack!  I am thinking my  niece might enjoy a pieced Christmas tree with pink metallic rickrack because you know she is all about the bling.  :)

Have a great day!

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Pieced Christmas tree ornaments

In our effort to downsize and organize I discovered something... containers of this

(scraps won in a giveaway last year)

and this

(remnants from the same giveaway)

which was turned into these.

All that is left to do is add the trunk (ribbing off an old sweater), snowflake bead for the star (part of yard sale find) plus a hanger and they are done!

I LOVE repurposing!

(all components in this project were either remnants won in giveaways,  part of "package deal" at a yard sale or a from an article of clothing that was no longer usable.) 

Total cost: $.50 for the entire yard sale package deal which included many other usable items such a a bin of embroidery thread, needles, beads, and various other notions.

Hope you are having a wonderful Thanksgiving weekend!!

Happy Thanksgiving and a giveaway winner!

I wanted to wish each and every one of you a Happy Thanksgiving!  

I am so very blessed to be able to spend the day with my loving husband and "man children"!  

A simple meal enjoyed by all!  

A mocha pie for dessert many hours later.

and my "new" holiday table cloth.  Thank you very much Goodwill!  I love a bargain!!

(wow it sure does need ironed...)

And do you see this young man?  He just got accepted to IU Bloomington!!

(isn't it just wrong that the "boy" can grow a beard in a week?)

And now for the My Memories Suite giveaway winner...

Congratulations Alicia@ eco friendly homemaking 

Please contact me and we will get you set up with your very own copy!  I hope you enjoy it!

Once again Happy Thanksgiving!